JUST BETWEEN US or AS WE GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER

                          I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW

YES, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW. WHAT I WANT YOU TO KNOW IS IMPERATIVE TO THE UNDERSTANDING BETWEEN YOU (THE READER) AND ME (I,THE MASTER OF THIS BLOG). BETWEEN MASTER AND READER, STRICTLY, VERY INTIMATELY, COMPLETE UNDERSTANDING. WHAT THE READER MUST UNDERSTAND: I, THE MASTER OF THIS BLOG, DO NOT TEND TO ORDER. A SIMPLE TRANSLATION: I, THE MASTER OF THIS BLOG HAVE MANY IDEAS. STORIES, OPINIONS, ETCETERA. THE POSTS ON THIS BLOG DO ADHERE SOMEWHAT, IF NOT TAXONOMICALLY, TO A SENSE OF STRUCTURE.THESENSE OF STRUCTURE QUITE SIMPLY THIS: I, THE MASTER OF THIS BLOG, PLACE MY POSTS IN CATEGORIES. FOR INSTANCE; ONE DAY YOU MAY READ A TRAGIC POST THAT IS NOT FICTION AND A MEMOIR. IT MAY HAVE MORE THAN ONE PART: TRAGIC POST (I), PART ONE UNDER THESE CATEGORIES "NOT FICTION" "MEMOIR." THEN, YOU MAY READ ONE DAY, AN OPINION: A SINGLE OPINION POST THAT IS NOT A PART, BUT STANDS ALONE UNDER THESE CATEGORIES "MY OPINIONS" "NOT FICTION" ETCETERA. THEN, SOME OTHER DAY YOU MAY HAPPEN UPON SOMETHING FAMILIAR AGAIN: TRAGIC POST (II), PART TWO UNDER THESE CATEGORIES "NOT FICTION" "MEMOIRS" ETCETERA. YOU DIG? JUST TAKE CARE TO LET ME KNOW IF I HAVE MADE A CONNECTION WITH YOU, THE READER, AND HAVE SUCCEEDED TO BRIDGE AN UNDERSTANDING CONCERNING THE NON-CHRONOLOGICAL NATURE OF MY POSTS. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE ISSUE NOW?
                 COMMENTS. COMMENTS. YOUR COMMENTS ARE VERY IMPORTANT AND NECESSARY TO ME. I MAY BE MASTER OF THIS BLOG, BUT, I AM A HUMBLE MASTER-NOT TO BE CONFUSED WITH ARROGANT MASTERS. ARROGANT MASTERS BEREFT OF HUMILITY ARE ACTUALLY STUPID PEOPLE PRETENDING TO KNOW A LOT AND TO CALL THEMSELVES MASTERS. COMMENTS. COMMENTS ARE LOCATED AT THE END OF THIS POST. THEY ARE AT THE END OF EVERY POST. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CLICK "COMMENTS" AND, HI-HO SILVER, YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT PATH TO VOICING YOUR,...WHATEVER YOU WANT TO SAY. DO YOU UNDERSTAND? I HOPE YOU KNOW. NOW. THANK YOU. SINCERELY. I WONDER IF PEOPLE STILL READ. HONESTLY. THANK YOU.

 JUST BETWEEN US or AS WE GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER

Intimacy. I am going to be intimate. Again. I have no reservations about being intimate. Verbally. Verbal intimacy, or rather, in this case, more like epistolic intimacy. Being intimate, for me, has always been, by and large, a facet, among many, of my nature. Oh and commas. ,,,,,,,,,,,. Some people, always to my naive disbelief, become very uncomfortable when I am intimate. Verbally and epistolically. Neologisms are also a specialty of mine: Ne·ol·o·gism [nee-ol-uh-jiz-uhm]-(noun) a new word, meaning, usage, or phrase; the introduction or use of new words or new senses of existing words.
   Quite simply, I advise you to run amongst yourselves to the hills of the uncomfortable, uncommunicative, non-intimates if that be your personal handling of reading, hearing, seeing things intimate. I say GO! Or, perhaps you are in the closet with intimacy; a closet-intimate-peeping tom peeping clandestinely and concealing your identification. If you indeed prefer intimacy, but only hush-hush, I say "KNOCK YOURSELF OUT."
    This here is a prelude to my autobiographically uncomfortable and intimately revealing portrait of my life. Past. Present. And, at times, glimpses into my not-yet-existing future. I have added, way at the bottom of my blog, Prolokiev's musical score "Peter and the Wolf." I have found this piece of instrumentation appropriate for the soundtrack of my autobiographical pieces. I insist you play it, even if just once, while reading something I have written, blatantly about myself, For instance: "The Swamp: A Nice Town" pairs up perfectly with this musical selection. You might even be interested to know that I also invent monologues accompanied with sound and have already tailored this piece by Prolokiev to suit the aura of my not-yet-finished monologue. But, later....later.
      I must also give you a heads up on a condition, congenital, that I have. It is a condition opposite to a saying you may be familiar with called "RESTRAINT OF PEN AND TONGUE." First of all, when my pen starts writing, or my fingers start typing, I cannot control them. This is not a fault. It is a condition. Conditions are more forgivable than faults. I did not intend my condition. No one intends conditions. Faults are strictly a result of bad conscious choices or endeavors.
      Tact is an art-form. I can perfect it as an actor perfects that which he or she is not (if they are genuine good quality actors). But, it is unnatural to me and naturally I have not been graced in my nature with the art of tact. Also, I am not a starving writer. But, I cannot afford lids. Therefore, I cannot put a lid on IT. I do, however, accept donations (via email) in order that I can afford a lid. If you feel so inclined to suggest I "PUT A LID ON IT" my email address is: awfullyloud@ymail.com. This suggestion, I'm afraid, will cost you. At your expense it may be well worth the cost.
     Sadly, I live in a capitalist society. Sadly, I cannot escape the curse of capitalism under the condition that I live in a capitalist society. I am a capitalist. Most do not like to admit this. Especially if their political slant be ideally slanted or immersed in the leftist-left-leftiest-left-wing-liberal philosophy. My sense of direction is terminally amuck. I know neither left from right or right from left. I find truth, not much so, in either direction. Being terminally deficient of direction, I tend towards that of truth. This, however, is more burdensome than my terminally amuck sense of direction.
     The truth hides. It hides in the arena of neither left nor right. It is a son-of-a-bitch to pin down. When I seek truth it usually involves a search requiring a pack of rations suited for the length of time it takes to go fishing for truth. Truth is tricky. It hides between the lines. It is many, many, eons underwater and rubbish. Sometimes, I admit, I fail to find truth because I am not much of a scuba-diver and there is only so much I can take of digging through rubbish. Sometimes, as a result of searching for the truth, I collapse,,,,,,,,,,,,exhausted. I end up bedridden for days. I get nothing done. Therefore, in my case, personal conquest supersedes the search for truth. My personal conquest without a lid.

         Lastly, at last, and I am sure you are already exhausted with this "JUST BETWEEN US" business, I must discuss with you my HIBERNATION PERIODS. There will be times when my blog is overflowing with a deluge of posts (s) (s) (s). These deluges can exist over a period of one day, days, weeks.....and then....nothing. Why nothing? Has she thrown in the towel? Has she abandoned the written word altogether? Common questions concerning nothing. Never. I ask you. Never fear. My lack of output may, like the temperamental deluges, last a day, a week, rarely a month, but, sometimes, yes. I can assure you that when this happens, it is only temporary. Circumstantial. Circumstances that fall under the power of nature. Hibernation is quite natural. It is not a thing restricted to the lives of bears. The difference between me hibernating and a bear hibernating is this: during my hibernations many supernatural and cerebral metamorphoses are taking place. My body becomes inert. My physical and physiological composition goes into survival mode. When my mental faculties are in overdrive, my physical faculties react best by shutting down in order that my mental overdrive be supplied with all the energy it needs to keep from overheating and/or erupting. A simple translation: my body shuts down so that the neurons in my brain that control my body can limit their focus to keeping my head from blowing off. Multi-tasking neurons under stress can result in permanent damage and/or death. This may sound to you abominable, but it is actually very pragmatic. A scientific phenomenon. It makes absolute sense. If I did not hibernate every now and then I would become handicapped forever with nonproductivity. Always, the magic that occurs during my hibernations will be revealed to you. When I return. Inevitably.
      So. I think I have acquainted myself well enough with you. I have found that I benefit more if my audience has a critical understanding of who I am and why and how and whatever and what not. Then, when the shit starts pouring out, intimately, violently, beautifully, sadly, or stops pouring temporarily...........................No apologies. I must go now. Part II of "The Swamp: A Nice Town" is calling my attention. Several other attentions calling my attention. Who knows what will come next. Would that be not boring? To always know what comes next? Adieu.

                                   MY WRITING, YOU SEE...

My writing, you see, is not even close to my ideal of its perfection. All of what I have been writing, and will write, are works in progress, contain grammatical errors (which I can easily fix when I re-read), are rough drafts, ideas spewing out of my idea packed head. If I were over critical of my writing, and I have been, then I would not write at all. Then, I would drown myself or stick dynamite in my mouth and......well, you see, the issue here is this: I JUST HAVE TO WRITE. No matter what comes out, how it comes out: it is the process and habit f writing everyday that will allow me to progress and develop the ideas that I spew out. If I were to be always consciously conscious while writing that I am writing my writing would be a full of shit bore. I welcome comments on what I write or thoughts. Sometimes people are curious and think-they pay attention. I like those types of people. Good day.-L0UDEN CLeAR